That one person.

I need to stop putting others before myself.
It just end with me in tears, wondering why people don't do the same for me.
I don't expect everyone to put me before themselves.
I just want that one person,
That would, not get off the phone, if they could hear how upset i was.
That wouldn't go to sleep, knowing I can't sleep
That would go to any lengths to just see me smile.
Just one person, that would treat me like, I'm worth something.
I look out for other people. but who's looking out for me?
Sometimes i will put my self first, stop repressing my feelings, tell the truth as i know it.
And i end up hurting people, and then I'm back to fixing someone else, and not myself.
I do love helping others though, it's just....Like treat others the way you want to be treated means nothing,
care for others, and they expect you to always be there, but they sometimes are there for you.
I just want someone to put me first, cause, i don't know how to put myself first yet....
SM

My book.

Do you ever get that feeling where you feel so overwhelmed that you feel buried, and want to give up?
That you are buried so deep, there's no coming back?
Homework.
Classes.
Parents fighting.
Parents mad at me.
Sister moves out.
Relationship.
I hate the feeling of just being truly overwhelmed .
I just want to wave my white flag and shout "You win, world. You win"
I don't want to deal with anything anymore. I just want to sit, and read.
No real people. Just fiction. Imagination.
It's a good vacation from my chaotic world.
I just don't like my reality right now.
I like my delusion.
I just want to be not busy.
And read, my book.

SM

Frank Sinatra. You make my day.

Frank Sinatra. You make my day.
Though the last poem, was how I feel when I am down. This song is how I have felt for six months, and 18 days. I love you, and you know who you are.

For once in my life

I have someone who needs me
Someone I've needed so long
For once unafraid
I can go where life leads me
And somehow I know I'll be strong
For once I can touch
What my heart used to dream of
Long before I knew
Someone warm like you
Could make my dream come true
For once in my life
I won't let sorrow hurt me
Not like it's hurt me before
For once I've got someone
I know won't desert me
I'm not alone anymore
For once I can say
This is mine, you can't take it
As long as I've got love
I know I can make it
For once in my life
I've got someone who needs me